NAME: JANE DOE

PSYCHOPARADIGM (PERSPECTIVE TRANSLATION ERROR): the world is blurry. it's like a smudged photo. colors run together.

first mess you ever cleaned, outcome of an interpersonal dispute. statistical majority of messes aren't result of calculated efforts. result of moment of passion or a moment of negligence. yours was the same. statistics don't tell you what you learned. if you clean up a mess, it never happened. people say mistakes can't be undone. no. only thing you need is cleanliness. any mistake can be undone. no stain lasts forever.

second mess you made was a smaller spill, while cleaning up the first. third was a mess made while figuring out what you learned. fourth was a mess you told yourself was out of passion. lied, it was out of confusion. by the time you made and cleaned the fifth mess, it was like looking at the world through glasses in the wrong prescription.

made a mess. cleaned a mess. nothing happened. stains didn't last forever. they barely lasted a day. stains run together until they're gone.

made it harder to understand the world or the people in it. made it easier to understand the world or the people in it. seen through the lens of stains and consequence, of litter and legacy. none of those are permanent. harder for those contours, borders, and signposts to mean anything. clean up the mess. the mistake is gone. it never happened. so why was it a mistake? there won't be consequences. there never are consequences. there is no such thing as consequences. mop. cart. spray bottle. swab the metal. soak. apply cleaner. sterilize. rinse the blood out.

every color runs together into gray water. you just have to clean enough.


RANK: JANITOR (EMPLOYMENT TERMINATED)
AGE: 27
EMPLOYMENT PERIOD: 3 MONTHS
LOYALTY RATING: 0
ASSESSMENT: PASSED. TARGET FOR MONITORING AND CAPTURE.